What's important and not important in life (and how to distinguish them)

I don’t recall many times asking myself that question as to what I need to do now because it is the most important…as everything parading in front of me seemed to share the same level of importance. Now because I am older, I am also wiser, not that showing off wisdom is a prerequisite for old age! ..but you see, I have just spent many weeks preparing a book proposal and now I am feeling exhausted and my brain had no creative juice left. Needless to say, going to bed at three last night did nothing for my ageing process but my literary “muse” missed the train again and arrived at odd hours.

…but, I am feeling pretty cool about myself as no one at my age would bother to write a book simply for brain exercise as I am hopeless with doing crosswords. And as they say, penning a book can be therapeutic as the process would reveal a lot of stuff about myself that I did not ask for. Nonetheless, it was a freeing experience being introduced to “myself” by “me” for the first time, sort of like self-introduction or speed dating!

And I think it is working (the getting to know oneself stuff), as now I can see clearly what is the most important thing for me to do right now. It is about ‘do nothing”, it is about “vegetating” which my dictionary describes as spending a period of time in a dull, inactive and unchallenging way. And how I love my Thesaurus contributing words such as laze, lounge, loll, loaf and slouch. I totally get it. Taking care of my body and soul deserve to rank No. 1 regardless of anything happening around me, forget about unpacking dishes or grocery, they can unpack themselves if they like. I can even feel my stress level going down as I allow myself to feel “worthy” for my own refill.

P.S. I just had a light bulb moment,: it seems that my inability to put myself first in the areas of self care and self love actually placed more stress in my life, perhaps intuitively I knew it was the right thing to do but it was my habit to talk myself out of it.