The greatest stressor of them all
We have been conned, how come we all entered this world as beautiful innocent babies and now some of us are feeling either “not good enough” or worse “something is wrong with me”. It seems that there were no shortages of opportunities in our growing up years to earn this “less than perfect” label, but we bought it just the same, encouraged along by the two thieves named “competition” and “comparison”. This daylight robbery took away the truth of who we are, essence of beauty and innocence as we dived willingly into this soup of collective amnesia.
But somewhere along the way, I sensed that something just didn’t add up as my life was playing out an identical version to the movie “Groundhog Day” with many patterns repeating in a trustworthy manner, meaning they always surfaced, just be patient and wait. I shifted furniture around and changed everything externally but status quo remained. Finally I gave up controlling the outcomes and had a good look at my internal landscape instead. Oh boy, was I shocked!!!!...there I connected the dots, my inner condition consisting thoughts (of lack, limitation, scarcity and unworthiness) was being projected onto this screen I called my reality and my life experiences were the expressions of that projection. Don’t believe me? Just visit a projection room in a cinema and you would understand there are no “real” people moving about on the screen.
Once I realised I could participate in this “thoughts become things” creative process, my life improved. One tip though, do not expect much good would arrive if we are not accepting of the goodness dwelled within us, we all have it, dig deeper and own it. I have lived life expressing that part of me (I called the “who I am not” part), completely unaware that it is impossible not to be stressed playing someone I am not. This lack of self awareness almost destroyed my gift of creativity, sense of fun and humour as I was too busy feeling comfortably numb and quietly desperate.
I want to invite you to cut through the layers of false self identifications that we have so lovingly built up for ourselves in the same way a plane would slide through the layers of clouds. I am getting better at ignoring my ego’s critical and judgmental voice, it is not my mate who has my best interest in mind.
Once we start living from the “who I am” aspect, we would see ourselves differently and the feeling of inner peace would arrive, sooner or later. So, to be painfully honest, I can’t think of anything more STRESSFUL than to live life 24/7 coming from the energy of “who we are not”, can you?
P.S. My very first book I got in the area of self growth was called “Would the Real me please stand up?”....Now I am standing before you and I am so very glad.
Talk more next month, sending you love, light and laughter.